Life isn’t always easy..

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I know it’s been awhile since I’ve posted anything on this page or my Sexwannie blog. But life isn’t always easy.

There are important things that get in the way of writing a blog. Life gets in the way. And so does death.

My husband and I have been though so much in a very short period of time.

On May 5th 2015 we lost my father in law to heart disease. Then a week later on May 12th my Mom lost her battle with Cancer.

That’s when I lost my way. My Mom was my heart, and my biggest fan.

I still cannot believe she’s gone.

I go to call her and then reality kicks in. She’s not here.

I look for signs that she told me she would send. I see them, I know she’s watching over me.

I just want her here.

It was Mom who pushed me to write and publish my first novel.

Know  I don’t know how I’m supposed to finish my second without her here.

When I started my blogs it was my Mama who would say “You’re on your way little girl.”

Its had not having her here pushing me to write. She had been telling me my entire life I needed to keep writing. .

So now it’s been about six weeks since she’s gone and I’m so lost without her.

We have moved out of Jersey. Packed up everything we thought we might use. And staying with someone who I thought was family.

If we could move again we would be out of here tonight.

“Don’t tell my Mom on her death bed that you will take care of me, and then once I give up everything I’ve ever known turn your back on me”.

I don’t eat, I don’t sleep, and someone keeps asking me; “Why are you crying?”

They say moving and losing a loved one are the most stressful things in life.

Well we’ve gone through both in a very short period of time. To say I’m stressed to the max would be an understatement.

I haven’t been able to write a word till today.

I know if she was still here she would be telling me to get on with it. “Live your life Little girl, do it for me”.

It’s not that easy to resume your life when someone so special and close in your life dies.

The only reason I’m writing this now is because my hubby shamed me into it. “What would your mom think Annie?” Well I’m pretty sure she would understand that I’m hurting. She would also tell me that life doesn’t stand still while you’re grieving.

My Mom was a very smart woman.

She is missed every minute of every day.

I know this post may not be much to most of you. But it’s a huge step forward for me.

I want to thank you all for sticking by me while I get my life in order. I really do miss interacting with all of you.

That’s it for now. Make sure you let your parents and loved one’s know how much you love them.

We are only put on this earth for a very short time. It’s so important to let those we love know how we feel. I’m so glad there were no words left unspoken.

Life really sucks sometimes. And sometimes we have no choice but to move forward. Even if it’s one day or minute at a time..

Hugs to all of you!!!

 

 

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Use It or Lose It

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DAILY PROMPT

Write about anything you’d like, but make sure the post includes this sentence:

“I thought we’d never come back from that one.” 

Whenever I hear the phrase use it or lose it I think of sex.

I can’t help it, that’s just how my brain works. Think about it this way; the more we have sex the more we think about sex and the more we think about sex the more want sex.

If we slack off or lose that loving feeling. We must think, use it or lose it.

So I started to think; how long was the longest dry spell between sexual encounters? As far as I can remember it had to be when I had my first back surgery. That was in nineteen eighty-nine.

I was in such a bad way. That surgery almost killed me. I remember screaming as a spasm grabbed hold of me.  I wasn’t able to walk on my own for six months. Now you would think I wasn’t thinking about sex. But I was thinking about sex. I mean we had only been married for three years.

I was thinking this is the longest we’ve ever gone without it.

Will my husband wait for me?

Will he leave me?

Does he love me enough to wait?

Will I ever want sex again?

Will my body keep failing me or will I walk again?

Why did this happen to me?

And am I ever going to get back to some kind of normal?

Yes I was feeling all sorts of sorry for myself at that time. And I was a mess if you really want to know the truth. I also had to take steroids.  I had what they call moon face. It’s not a very attractive look, especially for a twenty-nine year old woman. Moon face at any age can put you over the edge, but in your twenties it’s that much worse.

Being on steroids I also gained about thirty pounds.  And being only four-foot ten inches tall I wasn’t feeling my sexy side if you know what I mean. Hell I couldn’t even find my sexy side.

So here I was not able to walk on my own, in excruciating pain, with a body and face as big as the moon. I remember feeling like a huge beach ball with a face.

It was hard to look in the mirror each day, and when I did I cried. So I was thinking: how could my husband look at me and still want sex?

And even though sex at that time was physically impossible. I couldn’t put my mind around him still wanting me in that way.  But he did. And somehow he would make me forget what I looked like. This amazing man would tell me I was beautiful and that he loved me each and every day. He also reassured me that he wasn’t going anywhere.

It was this man who got me through one of the hardest times in my life.

All I had to do was hear his voice and I would feel a calm come over me.  Yes, It was his voice that would get me through some of my toughest days.

Fast forward through a year of the hardest physical and then aquatic therapy and I was finally able to get half of my strength back. I got rid of the walker and steroids. My face went back to normal. Sure I still had about twenty pounds to lose but I was starting to feel like myself.

Through all this I realized that we did have that unconditional love thing going for us. So I promised to never doubt his love again.

I know that I am one of the luckiest women in the world. I may have to live with chronic back pain for the rest of my life but I had made it back from a failed open lumbar back Laminectomy. Yes I was left with chronic pain for the rest of my life.

And I found out was that I have a husband who will always be there for me no matter what.  And I realized if he could stand by my side through a year of hell without physical sex 😉 than I knew without a doubt that we could make it back from anything.

Yes there were times when  “I thought we’d  never come back from that one.”  But we did.

Oh and the sex? Well our sex life just keeps getting better. It turns out that we never lost that connection. And that’s why I always say: “Where there’s a will there’s definitely a way.” With sex it doesn’t have to be physical. sex is a state of mind. And you either use it or lose it!

 

Save HarsH ReaLiTy!!

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If WordPress can suspend HarsH ReaLiTy’s ability to follow and “like” other blogs than they can suspend anyone of us. So Like, Share, or re-blog, But don’t just sit there and do nothing.

Linda G. Hill

No one likes spam. In internet terms (as opposed to the stuff you find on the grocery store shelf) it’s the bane of our existence. Its sole purpose is to get our attention and once it does, it either begs us to buy something or gives us something we would never pay for – something like a virus.

Then there is the exception to the rule. In fact, there is only one exception that I’ve found in over a decade of browsing the web. It may have seemed like a “spam follow” at the start, but when I followed the cookie-crumb trail that led me back to its source, it ended up benefiting me beyond my wildest dreams: it was HarsH ReaLiTy.

Jason, also known as Opinionated Man, has a huge (over 50,000 blog, twitter, and Facebook combined) following on his blog, HarsH ReaLiTy. His passion for connecting with other…

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Happy New Year!!

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This year:

Do what you love.

Smile more.

Live life to the fullest.

Take chances, if you fail get up and do it again only better.

Move!

Eat what you like in moderation.

Listen to your heart.

Give hugs to everyone you meet.

Find a signature cocktail.

Before you hang up the phone with family & friends say I love you.

Have more sex, orgasms are wonderful!

Learn something.

Read more.

Listen to what the kids are saying.

Just listen more.

Sing, It doesn’t matter if you can’t carry a tune. It feel good so do it.

In fact do everything that feels good.

Adopt or rescue a pet.

Live the life you have always wanted to live.

Follow your dreams.

Don’t put off till tomorrow what you could have done today.

Make someone else’s dreams come true.

Add more romance to your relationship.

Be yourself.

Have more fun!

Add some kink to your sex life.

Learn to Say No!

Laugh more, love more, just do more of what makes you happy.

Happy New Year everyone!!! May all your dreams come true!

Hugs, Annie xo..

 

 

 

 

 

Happy National Candy Day!!! (Nov. 4th) – Tell us What’s your favorite Candy?

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Who doesn’t like Candy and Willy Wonka Snippets

It’s National Candy Day! Humans have been eating candies and sweet confections for thousands of years. The ancient Egyptians preserved nuts and fruits in honey, and the Aztecs and Mayans consumed chocolate during religious rituals as early as 300 AD.

Today, there are thousands of different types of candy, all with their own unique history. For example, did you know that Tootsie Rolls were created by Leo Hirshfield of New York in 1896? He named them after his daughter, who was nicknamed “Tootsie.” The average American eats twenty-five pounds of candy each year. That may seem like a lot, but the average person in Denmark eats thirty-six pounds each year!

Whether you like chocolate, caramels, hard candy, or marzipan, treat yourself to something delicious to celebrate National Candy Day!

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The Mirror Crack’d

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DAILY PROMPT

You wake up one morning to a world without mirrors. How does your life — from your everyday routines to your perception of yourself — change?

(Thanks for suggesting this thought-provoking prompt, Chocolate Eyes!)

Without mirrors we might see more clearly the ugly side of people.  Yes, there would be a lot of out of sorts, crazy looking people everywhere. But then everyone would look that way.

But I have a feeling for the right price mirrors could be had. So of course the rich would have mirrors. And this would cause friction between the haves and the have-nots.

I can see it now the haves with their noses in the air Looking just as perfect as perfect can be.  And the have-nots doing their best to look somewhat normal by using a widow panes to get a glimpse of their reflection.

A reflection can be seen many ways. Maybe it’s in the way you treat others that are less fortunate. If we all looked a little disheveled everyday then maybe people could lighten up just a little.

There might even be more laughter as people dress in colors that don’t match. And we would have to rely on the kindness of others to let us know when things like hair dye was needed.

It would be a strange world without mirrors. And maybe it’s a good thing we never have to worry about it.

That’s my story and I’m sticking to it..

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Puggle Lynyrd Skynyrd Public Service Announcement

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Safety First, Our four legged babies need us to make sure they’re safe.

Help Us Help Our 4-Legged Frynds

 

Even though I can do the doggie paddle, I could get tired so I wear my life vest because I’d rather be safe than sorry!!!  To all of my 4-Legged Frynds when boating with your human parents please make sure you wear a life vest. Paws Up Brothers & Sisters, L-Dog out……………..

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FIBROMYALGIA is a Four Letter Word

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It would be great if people looked up invisible illness before they made a comment about it. Chronic pain, Fibromyalgia, Lupus, arthritis, Arachnoiditis. But they won’t. There are over a hundred million people living with Chronic pain in the U.S. alone. Just think before you tell someone that some exercise is all they need. We all wish that was the answer.

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This isn’t a whiny post (at least I’ll try, no promises) or it can be fixed blog or whatever. Just a few thoughts about why people think Fibromyalgia isn’t a real syndrome, that it’s just lazy, unmotivated people and why I don’t have all the answers.

Let’s begin at the end; I don’t have all the answers because I don’t sleep enough.  Also, I’m not a million years old.  In addition, I’m certainly not a super genius.  Oh, did I mention I don’t sleep enough?

People prefer to think people with disorders such as Fibromyalgia are lazy because they don’t want to accept that you could wake up one morning and have something like that or ChronicFatigue Syndrome or Lyme Disease and so on.

Instead of doing the whole there-but-for-the-grace-of-God-go-I thing, many people just decide that people with these illnesses could do better if they just got…

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That Sucks

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When you’re feeling down about what has been thrown your way look what others are going through. Life sucks sometimes. But sometimes it’s a good thing, Ask LaRae Parry..

MARSocial Author Business Enhancement Humor Post

My lungs suck. No. Wait a minute. They don’t suck. That’s the problem–they don’t suck at all. They just sit there—in my chest cavity—taking up space. It’s cruddy. No kidding.

Complaining about it doesn’t make my rotten lungs any better, so I don’t do it . . . all the time. Not everyday, anyway.

Because of my nonfunctioning lungs, I have to wear supplemental oxygen all the time. That sucks. Really. I have a machine that sucks pure oxygen out of the air and pumps it into my lungs. It’s great to suck.

There are some days, however, that I wonder if it’s worth the hassle to even get out of bed. I’m serious. Getting out of bed means I have to breathe more. Then, when that happens, I have to get clean. Then I see pictures of my children, grandchildren, and get on my computer and see my friends…

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Party On The Beach..

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So with all the preparation for the first party I decided to plan an party for all the other people I would love to meet in person. All those people that I talk to almost everyday. Some of these people I’ve talked to for years.

There’s my girls from Living despite pain group. We started this group a few years ago and we have five woman. Dar is the Canuck, Kaye is the English woman whose living in S. Korea. My English rose Alana along with Karen both from England of course. , And the baby Roisin from Ireland.  Sadly Aisling who was our koala just passed away. So for you Aisling Willow Cahill I say;  Merry meet, Merry part, and merry meet again.  I have no doubt that Ash as we called her will show up in some fashion.

Now for the rest. The Aussie Elizabeth will no doubt fly in for this festive party. And I’m sure she will bring some of that amazing coffee with her. I have no doubt DG will fly in from Arizona. Did I mention she’s an author whose also a Canuck who spends her winters state side. DG is the reason I started this party as she so wanted to crash the one in NYC, Lol.

My best friends Sherry and Deb will already be in Florida and they are always up for another party. I’m sure Genie will be there with Deb and of course she’s invited.

Now for the authors, LaRae is our Funny Crazy lady. Donalie is the mamma. Tre is one woman who needs some sunshine and party on the beach. Then there’s Marie, Jas, Janie, Anne, Regina, Augusta, Jane, Wendy, Vivi, CF, And Erin. Now I know for sure there are many others. But these are the women who are not afraid to talk about sex. Their not afraid to let their hair down. Oh and they can take a joke.

I do believe that meeting this group of amazing women face to face and putting them all together would enrich all our lives.  And I can’t wait to see what everyone will be wearing. Don’t forget to bring your sweaters as it just might get cool down by the water as the sun goes down.

This party is on Siesta Key beach in Florida. There’s a long table with white linen table clothes and china. Blue and yellow flowers in clear vases along with pink bougainvillea  are strewn about the table. White votive’s and large glass jars filled with sand each with one white large candle.  There’s even sea shells some holding the place cards in front of each place setting.

Close enough..

 

 

Tinted blue Mason jars are the glasses I choose for this party.This way it doesn’t matter if you’re drinking from the huge pitchers of water with lemon slices or your favorite beverage of choice.  Oh and this is a BYOB dinner party. I will be sure to have a few bottle of Patron and a few bottles of Kinky pink along with assorted sodas, pineapple and orange juice, a cooler full of ice and two blenders for anyone who wants a margarita or wants to come up with a specialty drink for my party.

Ahh the food will be Prosciutto & mozzarella on brushetta. Grilled chicken with Italian seasoning, Tomato salad with fresh sharp Italian cheese and black olives a balsamic and olive oil dressing makes this perfect. Fresh green beans and asparagus seared to perfection with garlic and olive oil. And for dessert assorted pastries.

And as the sun goes down and we’ve all eaten we will sit around the fire pit and this is when the tequila comes out. Shots for everyone, even those who don’t drink would have at least one. We would need some entertainment so maybe this is where we let the guys come in. There always good for a few laughs. And who else is going to man the embers as we try and make smores.

Before the night is over I have one more surprise. I hand everyone a Chinese lantern. We would all make a wish then light and let them float out above the sea.

All in all it will be a great party with good food, and great friends and a lot of laughter. If you would like to come to this party just add your name in the comments and tell me what you think you can add to this party.

If I could really put this party together and one day I will I would love to see the pictures that will be taken that day and night. What a wonderful day it would be..

We always have room for interesting fun people who love to laugh. You need to have an open mind and a sexy side. Well DG that’s the party. Just pick out your beach outfit. Sandals are optional as we will have our feet in the sand that feels like baby powder. If I missed something or you have something to add feel free.

That’s my beach party and I’m sticking to it..Lol.. 🙂